They

A white lady with beautiful eyes appeared in my house with her face like horses ass talking to me not so nice. Are you people really that fucking stupid and that fucking blind? Fuck positive psychology. Why do they keep approaching me every time I'm entering my pin at the grocery store? You don’t find that suspicious? I read the whole Bible. The Bible clearly says not to trust anyone. 

Fast

 

Eugene: Eugenics

The supervisor of this housing program was going to send me back to the Bronx knowing that my knees are bad to an old building with no elevator from a house I used to live in on the first floor to an old building with no elevator knowing that Eugene is the problem. 

The B Complex

That B Complex makes me feel so alive but it prevents me from sleeping. On the bottle it says Super and I feel on top of the world when I take it.

The Occult

People I knew including my brother had sex with prostitutes. I decided to study the occult because a lot of the things we are taught since we are kids are wrong. Prostitutes carry sexually transmitted deceases. I masturbate.

My pin number

You can't even buy food in peace because of black people. Why would you approach a person who's entering his pin number? To steal it.

Country

I see the picture

Black people here have been Demonizing the white man! "The white Devil." I was raised in a black community and even I have called the white man a white Devil and I am sorry. 

You are not having any fun

 

 

Pacifism

Pacifism: Opposition to violence of any kind.

My cyber friend

I've been telling my cyber friend for many years that we are not trapped or live in a prison. Life is what you make it. He has made a prison out of his life. He believes he lives in a prison.

Black Panther

 

 

Masturbation is a gift

"After masturbating I don't desire a woman." That's what my namesake was telling me in other words many years ago and the same thing happens to me.

Who is it?

"Hay una situacion que yo mismo ni se." Banda Loca

"It's The Jews" "It's The New World Order" "It's The illuminati" "It's The Roman Circus" "It's The Annunaki" "It's The Rothschild" "It's The Satanists" "It's The Elite"

Slacker

Slacker: A person who does anything they can to avoid doing work.

 

Think of funny things

 

 

 

Defective

I told my therapist over the phone that I think one of the cats we have here was communicating with me. She called the ambulance and the police on me because of that. They suddenly appeared in my house and I was hospitalized for weeks because of her. She's defective and she works as a therapist with mentally ill patients. A woman who thinks she's a man works as a therapist with mentally ill patients? She's defective. The cat lets me know when he wants me to open the door for him to go outside. When I'm in the kitchen sometimes he let's me know when he wants me to open the door for him to go inside Eugene's room. Eugene likes to keep it with him in his room and when it wants to go outside it calls out to me for me to tell Eugene that it wants to go outside. It speaks to me. In its own language of course. I know him since it was a kitten and now it is so big. I've been speaking to him in English since that time trying to make him understand human language because I read that the cat's brain is similar to the human brain.

My cousin

My cousin asks me for money and she said to me that I have to be locked up in a mental institution. I sent two texts to her saying goodbye forever to her.

My fucking family

They know things and see things and they always stayed quiet. Why didn't they talk to me and opened my eyes? No, They used to judge me instead of guiding me. I see why there is still segregation in this country.

Human hunting another human

Hunt:

To pursue intensively so as to capture or kill.

To pursue (a person) aggressively in order to capture.

 

The World

I'm not in The World but I see The World. Ha ha. Sometimes it is better not to get involved.

Awakened

 Today I feel like I have awakened from something and I feel better now!!!!!!!

Sober

I will remain Sober. I've been taking a Nature Made B complex and a Multivitamin, Omega 3, Fiber Capsules and Probiotics at night and I am always on top of the world.

Eugene

Eugene: Eugenics

 

How?

How can a person who was born and raised in The United States be so stupid? 

Mi Carrito

 

La Noche

El dia es para trabajar y la noche es para gozar.

 

 

A single life is a good life

I am able to always buy nice things for myself because I am single. I was able to move from three different places easily without too much possessions because I am single. If I were married and I had children or a family to support my life would have been completely different. Being single I feel free and I will not give up my freedom by being in a relationship. I could have had a relationship or relationships in the past with different women but I chose not to.

 

Oh Señor

Peace within

 Find peace within without going up North.

I am here

Replication - The act of making copies.

Biology The process by which genetic material, a single-celled organism, reproduces or makes a copy of itself.

A copy or reproduction.

A less common word for replica.

Copy: replica.

The act or process of replicating.

I dedicate this song to the world

Ricky Castro El Sun sun

 When are they going to do it for real?

Ni Loca

 Ni Loca viajo yo fuera de Estados Unidos.

College

When I went to college for the first time I took an English class. I got an A in the class and an Asian student failed the class.

White teachers

Another thing I noticed is that black people like to corrupt young people. I saw one of them in Brooklyn intentionally corrupting a young Jew and that young Jew had a tattoo. I saw the way the young black male was passing the cigarette to the young Jew. Yes, they were sharing the same cigarette and that's unhealthy. In high school when I took a health class one of the things a young Italian teacher taught us was not to share drinks. I wonder if she's still alive. During my high school years I had a Jewish English teacher, a Romanian English teacher and another European English teacher but I don't remember which European country she was from. I read that in Spain they prefer light skin people to teach English.

Europa

Black people

My brother told me that when chinese people used to deliver food to people's homes black people used to beat them up, take their money and take the food they were going to deliver. That's why Chinese people call you to go outside to get the food instead of going inside the buildings.

Black people and Eugene

Eugene doesn't even clean the toilet after he shits. Black people like to leave shit in the toilets for others to see it. My old roommate Milton used to that to me. I noticed that Eugene started doing the same thing here to me intentionally. Why didn't he just used to flush the toilet instead of leaving his excrement in the toilet? I used to go to a boxing gym and a European owner of the gym told me that he had to remove the toilet papers from the bathroom because black people kept leaving shit in the toilets and didn't flush them for others to see it. He told me he was disgusted and that's why he decided to remove the toilet papers from the bathroom.

People

People have to be told what to do for their own good.

Eugene

I have too many things in my head and it is hard for me to think clear. One of the times I was hospitalized forty dollars went missing from my wallet. If I had not hidden my debit card and my money Eugene and his friends would have stolen them. Eugene uses his food stamps to buy drugs. Mustafa told me that he couldn't buy food to leave it in the fridge because Eugene used to take it. Why? Because Eugene uses his food stamps to buy drugs. He used to do the same thing to me and I called the police on him. After calling the police on him due to him stealing my food he kept doing it. What would have happened to me during the cold weather if they had stolen my money, my debit card and possibly my cellphone? Mustafa used to say to me a lot that Eugene should have been an abortion. He told me once that Eugene is a Bum. I don't know where these people got him from. Eugene told me that his step father used to beat him and I see why.

Jesus

Believing in Jesus always gets me into trouble. The teachings of Jesus are unrealistic.

The blacks

The blacks that live here don't take out the garbage to be collected by sanitation and if I don't take it out they won't take it out and they will keep accumulating more garbage here and I've seen young blacks living here that are old enough and strong enough to take out the garbage but they don't do it. You think they will go out to shovel the snow after it snows?

Eugene

 Eugene: Eugenics

Heil Hitler

I told Eugene to sweep his room, to pick up the garbage in his room and to put it in the garbage can. I also told him to empty a small garbage can he has in his room in a bigger garbage can we have in the kitchen and he didn't do it possibly expecting me to do it for him and he knows what he's doing. We have a toilet and he urinates inside a big glass bottle he has in his room and he doesn't like to empty that bottle possibly expecting me to do it for him and I always tell him to empty it. There shouldn't be a need for me to tell him all the time to empty that bottle. What happens  is that he's too lazy. He always has enough energy to cook, to eat, to go outside, to buy cigarettes and lighters, food, juice but he never has enough energy to keep our environment clean. He has a skin decease due to not showering and sleeping  in his dirty mattress. He's mattress used to be white and it turned black because how dirty it is and he has been sleeping in that dirty mattress for years. I've told him that he has to make an effort to live like a human being. He got angry when I told him that he has to shower because he has a skin decease. Mustafa told me that he's a Bum and he used to tell me a lot that Eugene should have been an abortion. He used to stress Mustafa so much to the point that Mustafa never let him use his phone. Mustafa told me that he didn't like to buy a lot of food to leave it in the refrigerator because Eugene used to take it and he used to say to me a lot that Eugene uses his food stamps to buy weed. Obviously what used to happen was that the black guy used to come and get Eugene, they used to go somewhere together, they used to turn the food stamps into cash, then the black guy used to give Eugene some weed and he used to keep all the money and Eugene never had food stamps to buy food. What he used to do was go to the dollar tree to steal food. They used to see on the Camera when Eugene used to go there to steal food and they told Eugene not to go back to the store. This month I only saw him buy three cans of tuna for his cats with his food stamps. I asked him why he didn't buy enough tuna cans for his cats with his food stamps and he told me that he used them to buy food for his Jamaican friends. I feed him and his cats and he's possibly still using his food stamps to buy drugs. Heil Hitler. He never let anyone go inside his room. There was a bad smell in this house, I kept asking him if he threw the cat feces away and he said yes to me. There was still a bad smell in this house. I knocked on his door and I asked him again if he threw the cat feces  away. Lucky for the cats I looked inside his room and he was using one of my aluminum baking pans as a litter box. When I saw that I decided to buy for him the things he needed for his cats and every month I buy food for the cats and litter. I will keep doing it. After I asked him again if he threw the cat feces away he took out a bag full of cat feces to throw it away. He lied to me when I asked him if he threw the cat feces away. He was keeping it in his room inside a plastic bag. And he had those cats locked up in that dirty and extremely cold room. I freed the cats. Now they go outside and come back home when they need to.

Eugene and Milton

I noticed that Eugene intentionally leaves excrement in the toilet and he doesn't flush it for me to see it. Milton used to do the same thing to me. But I won't lose my cool. Now you see why Hitler killed so many people? Mustafa used to say to me a lot that Eugene should have been an abortion. Milton told me that a roommate he had attacked him. He asked someone at a Catholic church if he could get baptized there to start going to that church and someone there said no to him. I think he's not welcome at the Mormon church either.

Everything in life has a purpose

"E pa parasito" "parasito" "parasito" "parasito" "parasito" "parasito" "parasito"

"She keeps using that word! Let me check what it means in the dictionary."

Parasite: 

Biology: An organism that lives and feeds on or in an organism of a different species and causes harm to its host.

One who habitually takes advantage of the generosity of others without making any useful return.

Biology: an animal or plant that lives in or on another (the host) from which it obtains nourishment. The host does not benefit from the association and is often harmed by it.

A person who habitually lives at the expense of others; sponger.

The Land of the Pharaohs

The Arab conquest of Egypt between 639 and 642 CE successfully ended centuries of Roman and Byzantine rule, causing the political framework of Byzantine Egypt to fall. The invasion led by Amr ibn al-As transferred power from Constantinople to the Rashidun Caliphate.

Would Egypt have been technologically advanced today if it were still the land of the pharaohs.

Military presence among the population

North Korea, Eritrea, and Israel have the highest military presence relative to their overall populations, with large active-duty forces and universal conscription deeply integrating military service into daily civilian life.

U.S. Soldiers with the Alaska National Guard, assigned to Joint Task Force–District of Columbia in support of the DC Safe and Beautiful mission, conduct presence patrols in Georgetown. Through vigilance, professionalism, and community engagement, Guardsmen work alongside interagency partners to help enhance public safety and provide reassurance to residents, commuters, and visitors. Their presence reflects a shared commitment to keeping Washington, D.C., safe, secure, and welcoming amid #Freedom250 celebrations.

Fucking family

My family has knowledge that could have helped me stay safe but they never shared it with me. They never told me to be cautious. They never opened my eyes. They will die without seeing me again.

Protect yourself

The word parasitic describes an organism that lives on or inside another living thing called a host and gets food or shelter at the host's expense. The parasite benefits, but the host is harmed.

A parasitic person is someone who lives off others. They take time, money, or energy without giving anything useful back. This behavior mirrors biological parasites that survive at a host's expense.

People who behave in a parasitic way are often troublemakers because they rely on manipulation, emotional guilt, and constant exploitation instead of fair sharing. They drain your time, money, and energy while giving nothing back.

One of my cousins is a parasite, she doesn't like to work, she said that she is not going to work, she got pregnant without having a place to live, she moved in with us after giving birth, she used to live of welfare, she never contribute to anything, everytime i got paid she used to ask me for money, she used to always start problems with me in my own house, i used to ignore her, i decided not to keep taking shit from her, we had a problem and i almost ended up going to prison because of her. After we helped her. Before that problem happened she used to live with my aunt while being pregnant, my aunt kicked her out of her house while being pregnant. She went to my sister's house and my mother was at my sister's house, she asked my mother if she could stay with us, my mother told her to ask me and guess what I said, I said yes to help her and look what she did to me. I've seen videos on social media that say that helping someone can put you in danger.

Eugene brought his Jamaican homeless friends to live here with us. I was helping them until they got back on their feet then I noticed that what they wanted to do was stay outside all day probably drinking alcohol and then coming here at night to sleep on the floor like animals permanently. Eugene's Jamaican friend doesn't want to shave his beard, he doesn't want to cut his hair, he doesn't want to go to HRA to get the help he needs, he doesn't want to go to a shelter and he doesn't want to help himself. He just wants to live of off me and stay here sleeping  on the floor every night like an animal. When I saw their intention I told Eugene's friend that he cannot stay here with us because we can get into trouble by having them living here with us. A while after I said that to him the police knocked on my door and one of the officers said to me, "you can't kick anyone out." And I told the officer that this is supportive housing and that we are not allowed to bring anyone to live here with us. After I said that to him he said to me again, "you can't kick anyone out." And again I told him that this is supportive housing and that we are not allowed to bring anyone to live here with us. Luckily I thought about showing to him the website of the office of the NYC mayor with my phone. After I did that they left. I thought they were going to lock me up that's why I kept the metal door of this house locked. We have two doors in this house, a wooden door and a metal door.

Does not Compute

“Does not compute” means “I don’t understand” or “that does not make sense.”

Eugene

I was showing nice things to a worker who comes here to see me every week and playing nice music to her and Eugene kept talking loudly to prevent me from showing her. He used to sell his food stamps to a black guy in exchange for weed then he used to go to the dollar tree to steal food or steal my food. Mustafa used to tell me a lot that he should have been an abortion The case worker has a strange mentality, she kept telling me not to worry about others and she's black. Eugene asked me for a dollar, I didn't have any change and I gave a twenty dollar bill to him to take the dollar. After I gave him the money he's Jamaican friend all of a sudden appeared here. When I counted the money he gave back to me fifteen dollars, he used five dollars out of the twenty dollars I gave to him instead of one dollar and all of a sudden his Jamaican friend appeared here. I told him to go away or that I was going to call the police. I told Eugene that I don't want his Jamaican friend  here. He's a parasite. I told him to go to HRA to get the help he needs and he doesn't do it. He just wants to stay outside on the streets the whole day then come here to sleep on the floor like an animal. That's how he wants to live his life. I thought he was going to stay here for just a few days until he got back on his feet then I saw his intentions and I noticed he wants to stay here permanently sleeping on the floor like an animal for the rest of his life and staying outside the whole day drinking alcohol and possibly using  other drugs. I blame my family for a lot of the things I've been going through but they are the jealous kind but someone told me many years ago that everything in life has a purpose. Now I live comfortably in a nice house.

What kind of people would destroy something as beautiful as that?

"The cause of all pain and suffering is ignorance." Buddha

During the Roman Empire, North Africa (primarily modern-day Tunisia, Algeria, Libya, and Morocco) was a rich, peaceful, and vital region. It served as the main "breadbasket" of Rome, grew very wealthy through farming and trade, and featured grand cities with Roman baths, theaters, and unique local cultures.

Pinky

A transmission rebuilder I used to know was missing half his index finger and he had to keep working. Another transmission rebuilder i know was working on a truck, the truck fan was on, it hit his middle finger, he was unable to move that finger and he had to keep working. I could have lost a pinky at work luckily I didn't. I was rebuilding a transmission my pinky got stuck luckily I wasn't alone at the shop and a co worker helped me. He was about to go home and he decided to go back inside the shop then he saw what was happening to me and he quickly helped me.

Teachers With Mental Retardation

I told an old friend I have who's a Spanish teacher here that I don't travel outside The US, to stay where he's safe because the world has gone insane and he told me that he's going to Mexico. He used to identify as gay and he told me that he has traveled to countries where gay people get executed. He became a Muslim and I asked him why he became a Muslim knowing that Muslims hate gay people and he told me that he likes the culture. He asked me to give him a hundred dollars for him to go to Mexico, he's going to Mexico without having any money? In the future the Sun will destroy the Earth that's why Scientists have been looking for habitable planets and my old friend wrote the quote below. I told him to learn when to keep his mouth shut and that someone said to me many years ago that when I'm around people to keep my mouth shut and he said to me “Don’t disrespect me by telling me to keep my ‘mouth shut’. Is condescend and disrespectful to me.” I've been trying to help him because he helped me. One hand washes the other and believe it or not he has been a compass in my life. I became more religious or more spiritual thanks to him and I will forever be grateful. He's very spiritual. He used to take me to The Temple of Tao and To The Temple of Krishna. One of the times we got out of The Temple of Krishna I decided to look up to the sky and I saw a flying saucer right next to a cloud and when I looked at it, it quickly took off. My friend used to invite me to his home to watch movies about spirituality. He's a great person. He also introduced me to his sister and they were never ashamed of taking me to different places with them. His sister used to dance with me. Yes, I used to dance. I'll try to help him as much as I can. I started making him memorize important information and information for him to feel happy always. One hand washes the other.

Jamaicans Burn Down A Chinese Hotel Again

 

You think Chinese people are targeting us?

Targeting: To aim at or identify as a target:

At one of the Buffet they have where I used to live they give customers bananas and I used to live in a community where there are a lot of black people and they go to that buffet.

Chinese people sell fake stuff to us and they charge us a lot of money for them. They don't eat the food they sell to us. They eat healthy. A doctor told me that Chinese food has too much calories. I had a good Cyber friend from Serbia and she told me that she will not speak with Foreigners anymore then I lost her forever. There are twenty five million homeless people in China and they search for food in the garbage. An old white man went to visit China and now he's stranded there. I saw him crying in a video. They know the food they sell to us makes us obese and they keep selling it to us. Chinese people irritate the Serbian cyber friend I had. There is something about them she doesn't like. I think I also heard that Chinese people who work at Chinese restaurants are slaves. One time I was at a Grocery store and an Asian man went to the store and bought cans of dog food and it crossed my mind that he probably had a dog or dogs hidden somewhere to kill them and eat them. The way he put the dog food cans on the counter was strange. We were talking about Buddhist temples here and Mustafa told me that they like to ask for donations. He also told me that Chinese people like to sell Chinese food in cash because that's money laundering. Mustafa is very smart and well spoken. He knows about a lot of things. One night I was doing the dishes and I accidentally cut one of my fingers with a knife that was in the sink and I said to him, "I cut myself" and he told me what to do to stop the bleeding and it worked. Mustafa is very smart and I like him. He was educated in a Muslim school and I think that from there he went to college. Yes, he's college educated and he's English is very advanced. I also had a roommate at a hospital one of the times I was hospitalized, he's also college educated, he's also very smart but he tried to kill himself. I didn't  have access to a computer at the hospital. I asked him if he could define some things for me and he did. He has a job and he's Dominican. I didn't ask him why he tried to kill himself. He just told me that he didn't want to talk so much.

Buddhism and Skepticism

In The Republic, Plato suggests that the government control who the ruling Guardians have children with. His goal is to create better future citizens, reduce loyalty to individual families, and have the best citizens reproduce with each other.

“Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.” Buddha 

Turning the other cheek

Turning the other cheek in certain situations prevented me from acting violently and getting into trouble with the law. Someone said to me something similar to turning the other cheek in certain situations, he said to me, "you ignore people." turning the other cheek in certain situations is similar to not taking things personally and choosing not get offended. It means to disregard certain things and not escalating them. "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me."

They can't destroy our cultures

 Jet Li’s Hero Movie (2002): “Our land may be conquered, but our culture cannot be destroyed.”

Fucking Black People

Other people who live in this house don't take the garbage outside. They wait for someone else to do it. They don't take the garbage outside for sanitation to collect it. Guess who always takes the garbage outside for sanitation to collect it, and if I don't take the garbage outside it accumulates here and on top of that they put more garbage on top of the garbage that was already accumulated. Last Friday I forgot to take the garbage outside and now there is a lot more garbage for me to take outside on Tuesday. I've seen young black people living in this house and they don't take the garbage outside when they have to. They wait for me to do it and they know what they are doing. 

The sun is shining

Longevity

My first elementary school teacher used to drink a lot of tea with lemon. After I became an adult I saw her again and she looks the same way she looked when she was my elementary school teacher. I know she recognized me when she saw me again. I should have approached her. My cousin's father didn't drink soda, he always drank water and he used to squeeze some lemon juice in the water and he died at age 87. I also think he never lost his teeth.

I remember my first elementary school teacher teaching me about computers with a computer that looks like the one I placed at the bottom of this page. She is or was Puerto Rican.

                                                    Elementary School Computer

How can a person be so stupid and evil?

A sadist is a person who gets pleasure, satisfaction, or excitement from inflicting physical, mental, or emotional pain, punishment, or humiliation on others. My mother, my sister and her husband are Sadists. They turned my niece and my nephew against me and on top of that they used to ask me for favors. My niece was targeting my daughter on Facebook when my daughter was younger. I try to keep an eye on my children to keep them safe. When I saw what my niece was doing to my daughter I wrote to her telling her to stay away from my children and that they will not do to them what they have been doing to me for years.

Now my mother is acting like a mosquita muerta. She used to gamble all the money. She used to borrow money to gamble it and then lose it. There were a lot of times she didn't pay the rent to gamble the rent money. Then I found a way to pay the rent online. When I was at home in peace using my computer without bothering anyone she used to harass me and intentionally make me angry. Luckily I didn't act violently towards her and she joined the others and turned against me also. It's a long story. I will not go to her funeral. How can a woman give birth to a person to make him suffer so much? We were going to be transferred to a smaller apartment where I used to live with her and when we went to see the apartment  she asked me, "no va a pelia aqui?" I didn't provoke that fight, I was instigated. One time I called her, my brother was in her house, I told her to put my brother on the phone for me to speak with him and she said rudely to me, "pa que Chiquindolo va habla contigo?" I was given a medication called Trileptal and it cause me to have fecal incontinence and when I told her about it she told me, "ponte un kotex." The fecal incontinence already stopped luckily. I thought it was not going to stop because I had it for a long time after that medication was given to me. I'm good at saving money. When I used to save money at home she used to take my money to gamble it and then lose it. She knows how black people are and she knows that black people attack in groups and she never told me about it for me to protect myself. My family didn't guide me in life. Instead of guiding me they used to judge me. They are very evil and you can only fight fire with fire. My sister is very evil also and she likes to work with children. Fuck everything. There are people who have to be hated for being so evil. I was fine living with her and my brothers and I was always able to save a lot of money. When me and my ex wife were boyfriend and girlfriend she used to ask me to marry her and I used to say no to her. I ended up saying yes to her because of the way my mother treated me one day. I couldn't take the way she used to treat me and I ended up saying yes to my ex wife. Family members have to live together and support each other in this system.

Cocoband

 

 

Walt Disney

"Happiness is a state of mind. It's just according to the way you look at things." Walt Disney 

Black people

It seems you can't even go to the Supermarket to buy food in peace because of black people that's why I go to the Supermarket early in the morning when I need to when there aren't too many people to avoid being around people. I avoid people as much as I can for my safety. 

Blacks faced segregation in Ukraine

 

Black Woman Attacked in Russia

Nazi persecution of black people

 

Blacks in nazi Germany

 

Black people in Nazi Germany

Hitler

What drove Hitler to kill so many people?

Eugene let's the cat feces accumulate and I always have to tell him to throw it away. I think he likes the smell of cat feces. He used to lock himself in his room smelling like cat feces, he used to keep the cat feces in a bag in his room before I bought for him a litter box, a scoop, litter and poop bags to throw the cat feces away. Having pets is unsanitary. The house was smelling like shit, I kept asking him if he threw the cat feces away and he kept saying yes to me. The house kept smelling like shit, I knocked on his door and I asked him again if he threw the cat feces away. After asking him if he threw the cat feces away he took a bag with cat feces in it that he had in his room and he threw it away. He likes the smell of cat feces. One time he came out of his room with his clothes smelling like feces. He had the same clothes on for a long time because he doesn't like to shower. When he came out of his room with his clothes smelling like feces I told him nicely that he needs to shower. Mustafa told me that he is a bum and that he should have been an abortion. Mustafa kept saying that to me but Mustafa is also a bum even though he's college educated. 

Eugene

Luckily Eugene doesn't have children. Mustafa 

used to say to me a lot that he should have been an abortion. He also used to say to me that Eugene is developmentally retarded. One night the Jamaican couple that Eugene brought here to live with us because they are homeless bought only two steaks for themselves and they didn't buy one for Eugene and on top of that the Jamaican man sent Eugene out at night to buy something for him at the store for him to finish cooking their steak because the girlfriend of the Jamaican man doesn't know how to cook. Every time Eugene received his food stamps a black guy used to come here to get him, they used to go somewhere together to turn Eugene's food stamps into cash, he used to give Eugene some weed and he used to keep all the money. When I first moved here Mustafa used to tell me that Eugene uses his food stamps to buy weed. When I first moved here Eugene used to steal my food because he never had food stamps to buy food. Also he's SSI check was stopped. Eugene used to go to the dollar tree to steals food because he never had food stamps to buy food. Black people know that there is something wrong with Eugene and they take advantage of him. Another time the Jamaican couple bought food for themselves to took it here and the Jamaican man told Eugene that he was going to cook and to not touch his food even though Eugene brought them here to live here with us because they are homeless. 

I don't travel outside the US

 

Yahoo answers

Many years ago I asked a question about people on Yahoo answers and someone wrote to me that when i'm around people to keep my mouth shut and to try to not let them notice me as much. I avoid people as much as I can. I began to heal when I began to stay away from people. I began to stay away from people or to avoid them after I read psalm one luckily.

Hermit

I was never really a hermit. i used to go out where I used to live and I was even a gym member. Now I live in a place where there is nothing to do and nothing happens. What I do is stay in my home peacefully using the internet. Luckily we have all these technology available.

I want to stay single

There are things in life more enjoyable than sex. Nikola Tesla was right. Being single I've been able to learn and do alot of things. If I had a relationship possibly that would not have been the case. I could have had a relationship but I chose not to.

Living underground

To live underground means to dwell beneath the surface of the earth. This can be literal—such as animals in burrows or humans residing in earth-sheltered homes and bunkers—or figurative, meaning to live in total secrecy, hiding from society or the law.

Savages

Why do young people in this country keep acting like savages and acting violently? Generation after generation they continue acting like savages and violently and this government doesn't do anything about it. They allow them to continue acting like savages and violently and never educate them better for them to be better human beings. 

Buddhism is Liberation

One of the reasons I live an easier life is because I learned from Buddhism not to be materialistic and I only spend my money on what's necessary. I get an SSI check, food stamps, I live in low income housing paying low rent, I get free health insurance, free car service to go to my appointments, a half fare omny card and I'm happy. I don't get millions but I always get enough to cover my needs and I've been living a good life for many years. I always feared losing my job and I can tell a lot of people feel the same way but for me that fear is gone thanks to getting government benefits. I will never travel outside the US again. I have everything I need here and there is no need for me to travel to other countries to put my life in danger. 

Learning by Observation

I took a typing class in high school then I took a computer class but we were not really taught a lot about computers in high school. I learned a lot of things about computers by watching others using their computers and I used to spend a lot of time at home using my computer learning how the internet works. I learned a lot about the internet by myself. For some reason I can't watch long videos. I can only watch short videos on social media. I will try to watch video Tutorials on YouTube. I already saw a video Tutorial about the Samsung phone and about tik tok.

I've been watching them

The Jamaican couple that Eugene brought to live here with us because they are homeless don't better themselves and don't go to different agencies to get the help they need. They just like to stay outside on the streets drinking alcohol every day the whole day. When I went to the liquor store earlier to buy Piña Colada and Eggnog they also went to the liquor store to buy alcohol. I told the Jamaican man to go to welfare and apply for food stamps and he doesn't do it. He just wants to stay here with his girlfriend without paying rent relying on me but that's not going to happen. That's being parasitic. After I told the Jamaican man that they cannot stay here with us they called the police on me and one of the officers who came here said to me twice, "you can't kick anyone out." After they called the police on me trying to stay here they came back here last night trying to stay here again. If they were doing that to somebody else he would have killed them a long time ago but I've been learning not to take things personally, to solve my problems peacefully and to not get offended like a book I read says. I already read that book and I tried to read it again but I lack motivation to read. 

Eugene and Mustafa

I've spoken with some people in English and they pretended not to understand me. A lot of people do that. I speak in English with Eugene and Mustafa and they understand me just fine. Eugene and Mustafa speak proper English. Mustafa is college educated and his English is very advanced. He knows so many words in English and he speaks English so advanced that when sometimes he spoke to me I used to think that he was speaking to me in a different language and I used to just say to him, "ok." Living with Eugene and Mustafa and communicating with them in English my English pronunciation has gotten better and now I speak English with more confidence. 

The Smartphone

I see watching videos on the Smartphone similar to Watching TV the only difference is the screen size between the TV and the smartphone. Watching TV and watching videos on the smartphone are both looking a screen the only difference is the screen size. 

Woo hoo!!!

After I've been losing weight I'm faster, I feel lighter, happier, stronger and sexier. Psychiatric medications cause you to have lack of energy or to be lazy and they make you hungry. After I told my psychiatrist that I wanted to stop getting the invega injection I have more energy, I don't have lack of energy anymore and I'm able to do a lot of things. Before I used to lie down in bed just eating. I didn't feel like listening to music, reading, I never had enough energy to go out to buy the things I need, now I do and I enjoy walking fast outside just like when I used to enjoy working out a lot when I was younger. 

The fear is gone

For many years I've been living a good life getting SSI. I don't get millions but I always get enough to cover my needs and now I live happy in a nice house that's very spacious paying low rent in a peaceful community with a good roommate who has cats. Before getting government benefits I always feared losing my job and I can tell other people feel the same way but for me that fear is gone. I don't fear being homeless anymore because this housing program won't let me be homeless.

The Cat

I kept telling the same thing for many years to an old friend I had and he doesn't listen. How can a person who's college educated, studied psychology and is a teacher be so stupid? He studied psychology in college and he knew I needed psychiatric treatment and he didn't tell me anything so I wouldn't get SSI. After I was given SSI he used to say to me, "tu te la ta haciendo pa que te den ayuda." One time we were having a conversation over the phone and he said to me, "sigue viviendo del sistema." What kind of friend is that? Another time we were talking over the phone, I asked him what he was doing and he said to me, "trabajando" and I think he was in the laundry. He visited me at the hospital a few times when I was hospitalized, he also knows that I'm asthmatic. Because he studied psychology in college I used to call him to tell him about the things I was going through with my family and at work. Another time he said to me, "tu tiene dos hijos y no te ha encargado de ello." He knows that when me and my ex wife were together I used to take good care of my ex wife and my kids. Even after me and my ex wife separated and I was still working I used to give her money. One time my ex wife went to Florida to take a flight attendant course. When she was there I always sent her money. When she came back she told me gratefully I was never in need of money when I was there. That’s because I always sent her money. Another time she decided to move to Florida and she left our kids with her mother. Even though we were not together anymore and she left our kids with her mother she called me desperately and almost crying asking me to send her twenty dollars for her to buy something to eat. I said yes to her, I went out to an agency and I sent a hundred dollars to her. Even though we were not together anymore and she left our kids with her mother she kept calling me to send money to her and I used to send it to her. When my ex wife was in Florida her mother secretly used to let me see my kids. When I told her mother that she used to call me to ask me to send her money her mother told me to not answer the phone when she calls me. When I used to visit my kids every month at my ex wife's mother's house I used to give my mother in law two hundred dollars. I remember one day after me and my ex wife broke up my mother in law put a dirty jacket on my daughter, she went to my house, I met her downstairs and she told me that my daughter needed new clothes. I knew she was lying to me but I went up to my house again, I got some money from my house and I gave her three hundred dollars. I noticed that in the van she was giving her other daughter money from the money I gave her for my daughter. My family and the friend I wrote about should be glad that I am lucky to be getting government benefits. Instead they turned against me and used to harass me when I was given SSI knowing that I am sick and that I've been hospitalized. My cousin Mildred before welfare changed here and started sending people who get welfare get jobs she lived of welfare for many years and she used to judge me because I am getting SSI. You see why I don't like Dominicans? Spaniards don't like Dominicans. They hate Dominicans and I see why. I blocked my old friend before for being so fucking stupid and I blocked him again this time. When I first applied for SSI I was denied. I told my social worker at the clinic I used to go to he told me to take the letter I received to the social security office and file for a fare hearing. I had to wait one year to see the judge. While I waited for a year to see the judge I was getting welfare. When I received a letter saying when I had to see the judge that day I met with my lawyer there. In the court room the judge introduced us to a group of people who were going to be at the hearing. Me, my mother and my lawyer were the only Spanish people at the hearing. The rest were white. After being there for a while I noticed that the people there wanted me to get approved I think it was because they knew how bad things were getting in this country at that time. After being there talking to the judge my lawyer got up, he showed the judge some documents, the judge showed the documents to a psychiatrist that was there. The judge asked the psychiatrist what he thinks, the psychiatrist spoke to the judge and I was approved and for many years I've been living a good life getting SSI. I don't get millions but I always get enough to cover my needs and now I live happy in a nice house that's very spacious in a peaceful community with a good roommate who has cats. Before getting government benefits I always feared losing my job and I can tell other people feel the same way. For me that fear is gone, I feel secure and fearless. Being homeless was my greatest fear. I am no longer afraid because I am in a good housing program and I was told by them that they won't let me be homeless. An old roommate I had moved from a group home to this housing program. He didn't have anything and the housing case workers of this program helped him get government benefits. He was getting social security benefit then it was stopped when he was moved to the group home. He can get a monthly check from the social security administration like he did before but he doesn't want to reply. I live with a new roommate at the house I live now. He went to a club, at the club someone stole his wallet, his identity was stolen, someone started working with his documents and his SSI was stopped. He only gets food stamps and this housing program allows him to live here without paying rent. His food stamps don't last for a whole month so what I do is feed him and his cats. I always tell him that if he needs to buy something with cash to let me know and I always give him money. I told him to keep it secret and I think he told his Jamaican friend about it. I told him that if he keeps telling people that I give him money I could get robbed and killed and to keep his fucking mouth shut but he doesn't listen. Mustafa told me that he is developmentally retarded. He can only buy food with the food stamps and I make sure we always have the things we need. I always order the things we need from Amazon and I always keep the house clean.

Buddhism Chat Room

At a Buddhism chat room I visit someone said that Buddha suggested learning Martial Arts. He also said that Buddha said to avoid certain people. Chatting with that person is healing. 

Buddha

Buddha said not to believe in anything blindly when you hear it or read it. He said to not even believe in his teachings blindly. People keep saying online negative things about the smartphone and social media. Now I live in a quiet community where nothing happens and there is nothing to do. There are only houses and some businesses. To get to other businesses you have to take the bus. Luckily we have all these technology available. I always have a good time at home using the internet with my smartphone. I've also read whole books with my smartphone including the whole Bible and the whole Bhagavad Gita. I want to also read the whole Quran and The book of Mormons. I already bought them from Amazon and I have them in my Kindle app library. What would have happened to me living in a quiet place like this where nothing happens and where there is nothing to do without all the technology we have available now? I heard a story about a family who lived in a place that was too quiet and a girl of the family killed herself because it was too quiet there. That’s what I heard a co-worker telling someone. Another co-worker I had told me that he moved to a place in Florida with his sister, he had a job there and he moved back to New York because that place was too quiet. There is a place where people are placed in a quiet room for certain amount of time and people can't stay in there for too long because that room is too quiet.