Watching

Watching me to judge me instead of helping me. I also grew up in a family that used to judge me instead of guiding me. I could have died in the past because they didn't guide me, luckily I didn't die. I grew up in a family where even my mother was against me, they have had something against me since I was a kid. No matter what I did they were always against me. I tried to do everything right and I was good to them. I was always there for them whenever they needed me and they were always against me. Even my ex wife joined them and turned against me also. I'm almost 50 years old and my cousin refuses to respect me. I see why some people kill others and I see why there is still segregation in this country. When I used to believe in Jesus I saw one of my cousins on Facebook and I contacted her to help her. I sent her a tablet and I used to send her money. She met a guy, she moved with him to Germany and her visa expired. When her visa expired and she went back to my country she didn't have money to buy food, she asked me to send her money and I did and now she hates me for some reason. But I won't let that bring me down. People write online saying that there are people who start hating others without a reason. I stopped believing in Jesus and now I keep my distance and I live happier this way. The guy my cousin moved to Germany with told her after her visa expired that if she leaves to not count on him.